Thinking about it while having a small trip to Jogja today. I was not really thinking about it before, considering that my concern was only the increasing amount of water going into the river, but not really the earth itself.
Well, looking at the ground all around, I realized that there is only a really small space of land uncover any hardening material such as asphalt, concrete, stone, or whatever hard materials. To imagine that earth is actually alive (it moves, changes, grows, and even breathes) the consciousness of she is trapping inside the darkness and couldn’t breathe disturb me. How cruel we are.
This might be too far to think that it is ‘she’ and she could breathe and could feel the way the human does. But imagine how the soil would bring life to the microorganisms inside its body if no light could pass the solid concrete and no oxygen could pass through those things? Yes, there are microorganisms that could live without oxygen and light, but it saddens me to realize that it happened.
Later I imagine if Earth’s skin has pores just like us, then one part of our skin had been covering with something the whole time, an acne will appear. That’s what might happen on Earth, cause we never know what she thought about our treatment of her.
But to be honest, I still love to visit nice buildings, see them, or even have one of them. As an architecture graduate student, a building is a representation both knowledge and practice to be aiming last forever through the changes of people and activities inside it, or even climate. It is really ambitious, to be honest, make a building permanently while every indigenous society always makes their buildings temporary rather making it last forever. They knew that people would change through time. They would not last forever and so, the concept of the permanent building seems quite ridiculous for them.
But do you really think that they are thinking that way? Maybe it’s only me who trying to seek a justification for my opinion.
I do not really have thoughts about what’s better to be done recently. Researching in an environmental problem makes me think so much about what is good for the environment and for society in its balance. Hence, they said that environment is aimed to be created for human livelihood. Besides, in Dan Brown’s latest novel (I don’t really sure to relate this to his book or not but it still necessary) he said that later human and robots would be a partner in living this Earth. Another opinion said that it’s okay that we face the environment depletion because we are driven by the law of nature; the strongest who will survive through evolution.
What is true is not certain because we haven’t been in the future itself. But the debates were important to realize what people really think about the future of our Earth. Will human be transferred to another planet or we would certainly be trapped here facing the increasing of the heat or sea level? Or it is still too far to be thinking?
I don’t know. I don’t really have thought about it.
Once before, I was really wanting to have children, but whatever I said about it back then, I have to admit that the purpose of having children still so egoist comparing to what I’ve been saying. But this confusion about the human role in this Earth really disturbs me.
When there are people some places on this Earth trying to protect what they have, there are people another place have no interest and really ignorant about what was going on. Not because they don’t know about it, but simply because of ignorance that they have. Somehow it turns to be frustrating sometimes and I would end up doing nothing but to relax my mind.
I know that everything is way too idealist to be true. But have a kind of idealism is really necessary to keep every dream alive and last to forever, being transferred to the next generation and so on.
I realized (I really do) that the practice that I’ve done really far from ideal. That’s also somehow quite frustrating and making me feeling unsatisfied with myself. The process always full of debates while my mind trying hard to bring the connection between one matter to another one until all those things linked together as one. But before it came to the big figure of what’s-going-on-right-now image, I lost myself. Everything became so absurd in sudden.
Again, even how many times I tried to reconnect them again, the absurdism came to me and erase the belief that I have.
This isn’t something important to you and might never be understood as I also hardly to reconstruct it here by now. But I want somehow, to encourage or being encouraged instead by people to be able to do something to environment and society, yet bring the positive impact to it.
How far this road that we walk on. So far the peak ahead. So hot the air we breathe. So patient the Earth we living on.